How Depression feels like!


Depression 

‌Someone is crying you hear it?.... Why only I can feel someone is crying very loud and can't stop I wanna find it make sure that kid is ohk hope she is not that injured as I think she is better she is alright, Her crying is totally insane its like she lost everything. Asking the stranger sitting beside me do you hear her crying? "He replied are you crazy?" maybe i am wrong but really? I don't think i am crazy i can hear her clearly without any disturbance of people around..... Wait a minute! Is it inner me that is trynna call me? Maybe yea yea yea maybe wait lemme put on my headphones close my eyes talk to them who are roaring crying begging for help. I closed my eyes a piano playing in my head scary but romantic travel through many many many memories but....... What i found was an unimaginably dark place that has caught up in a huge storm, the huge lake of gutter all around it stinky as hell it was the experience of real hell no one sees that place so clear than i can,(you guessed it right!.....) But even after seeing it i have to go in there to see what is going on as i entered i saw a huge painting of my love all caught up in the webs, books that had no pages, Terrible library of such books, cover of the books were scribbled with the words such as future, money, love, i kept them right at there respective places. As i move to the top floor climbing to the iron rods ripping my skins off reaching there i saw the whole thing was in the shape of sphere as it was night wherever i see "Timeout palace" was written I was so uncomfortable but had to find her even after all this i was unable to understand what was the crying and what it would have meant.... (You know but i don't.....) Guess what i saw at that awful place? Couldn't guess it? Don't worry i am telling you to keep reading as i say remember what is the place called? "Timeout palace" what did you understand by that? If this palace occupies the whole brain the person is gonna die. Trust me i saw a fucking head that had eyes popped out ears bleeding black blood, Lips soaked out not a drop of vapor, The crying continued but..... She spoke to me as i was so near to the lips i was about to go in, says the crying girl "Bring me cooked food, bring me water, bring me something to fulfill everything" Wondering or scared?..... May there be any emotion right now in you but you are ready to give all the food you have now, why? You can't see someone crying for food if yes you are not human..!!... I turned into the beast to find food for her but i couldn't get it from anywhere but did you forget where we are? In the brain but in the "timeout palace" The simplest way i can get food for her was to think about it but why can't i do it? I am in a state where i was unable to eat anything i used to forget to eat food. As i was crazy that i wasn't getting any food i got the realization i am in brain i can think and i will get food what she wants but i couldn't i was so helpless i just got in to the head to help the kid finding her..... Finding her and finding her the crying disappeared but only in the head as i came outside the sphere was changing its shape to irregular to spread everywhere in brain i was crying what is happening i wanna get out of this place but no i was unconscious and couldn't get up so i was stuck in timeout palace you can't imagine but i was so so so helpless that i was about lose hope and was ready to die with the girl then i heard the most beautiful voice of my mom saying where are you kid, lets eat the sphere shrinked everything was disappearing the whole sphere was white everything changed to something good i was so happy when the crying was changed to laughs and more laughs giggles everything then the girl "This voice always makes this place a heaven everything changes and gives us new hope" i understood everything and what i did after that? Ran to the palace saw the books were changed all colourful even the decorative piece around were dancing enjoying themselves the portrait of my lover was changed from webbed to a new one but i didn't like it i just grabbed it anyhow and threw it and made a picture of my mom the lake was clear as a freshwater and written in bold Happiness and joy. I get up ate something and was never feeling the way i did now every night i visit "Peace Palace" to get anything i want.........
‌Never ever be depressed it is a big cause of everything you experience if anyone else is also facing like this make them read this maybe they can change for good, I used to be in a depression now i don't have anything called depression in me....
‌By - Usama Thakur 

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Unknown said…
This is a best story every i seen in my life ,i am wanting for your next story 😍😍😍😘😘
July 9, 2018 at 3:07 AM
usamathakur said…
Thank you so much, It really means a lot to me!
July 9, 2018 at 3:13 AM
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